Re-Cap of The Week

As I sit here typing, its late and tomorrow is Friday and I am thankful. I don't want to rush my life away but lately it seems that I live for the weekends. Things at my office are not all that great right now and I am so disappointed in some that I thought were not only co-workers but friends as well. Lately there have been alot of lies and deceit going around and it breaks my heart at the situations that so many are facing. Some can brush it off better than I can, but some of the ones that doing the hurting (cut throat) are ones that I never thought would do something like that. I never thought I would see the day that management WANTS to see the employees fail. We all have questioned just what the intent is for all of this. I have been there 20 years and I have no clue and I am to the point that I just don't want to figure it out anymore. I go in the office and straight to my office....and thats where I try to stay and get things done on a daily basis. Do you ever get to feeling that no matter how hard you try, it still isn't good enough? I must admit that after reading the book "The Shack" (there I go again talking about that book-a MUST READ)...I am doing better at taking a different perspective of things. Oh, the hurt and disappointment is there, but I seem to deal with it better. I pray more than I ever have and I read inspirational things and devotions to help get me through the day. God is good! So, now I pray for what direction I need to take. 20 years seems like alot of time to give up but sense of mind seems to hold more importance at this point in my life. I think the nail was hit on the head when I had a Supvr. tell me I needed to "think outside the box" about attending a training session out of town for a week. Ok, so you're thinking whats so bad about that.....well, the "thinking outside the box" that she wanted me to do was dumping my child on someone else to tend too for a week so I could go to this class that will NOT give me a raise NOR will it give me a promotion.....in other words, because she put her children/family on a back burner, I am suppose too do that too....even for something that will not benefit except to give me a little more understanding of how appraisals are done.....we have a separate department that does that....it's not on my job description.....now, let me clarify something, if the class was not a week long and have me away from home and my family for a week, I wouldn't think twice....but when I was basically asked to "bump my family".....well, I'm sorry, but when I became a wife and especially a MOM, life took on a whole new meaning for me! Family comes first....especially my child.

So, for now I will stay in my "little corner of the world" (my office) and attempt to make my schedules, do what is necessary and GO HOME at 5:00 (or before if I can get out of there ;-)

Maybe this is my sign that it is time for change in my life....time to move on. I'm praying hard about that and I know that God will guide me in what I should do....and where I should be. (for the next 10 years until I can retire).....sorry to be so "down in the mouth" with this blog. I do promise to attempt to have some perky blogs coming real soon. I'll be posting new pictures soon. If you share in a situation similar to mine, share with me about it and how you are dealing with things. I do wonder who reads this blog.....there have been times that I knew people were reading....but today I wonder who is out there? Let me know you are there....there comes a time in our lives that we need to know that someone is there........are you there? Until Later!