Sitting Around Thinking

Well, I was just sitting here surfing the net and all of a sudden, it dawned on me that I had not posted on my blog in a while. What's with that??? I don't know, guess I have just had alot going on but that doesn't mean I haven't had plenty on my mind! Cade's baseball season got cranked up this past Friday night and we won our first game 22-0!! Cade also hit a homerun and I was one proud Mama!! I had to judge a pageant on Saturday in Mt. Holly. Had a blast doing that! Life has been kind of a whirlwind lately....lots of things happening that require alot of thought! Someone in my life who has been absent for quite sometime has recently made a couple appearances. It always confuses me because I think I am too far gone to get my hopes up that anything could ever work out....but as I read in the book "The Shack", we must forgive in order to be Christlike and enter the kingdom of Heaven....but we don't necessarily have to forget and we don't have to have a relationship unless we decide to have one. I feel that I can honestly forgive....forgetting is what I always worried about because alot of damage was done over the course of a lifetime. Mixed emotions feel my heart and mind because recently this person has come on some misfortunes and has found himself alone in more ways than one. However, since I have not been in this person's life for so long, his misfortunes are his own. I listen as he talks and I truly wish that things in life could be different.....for all of us! However, I find myself feeling guilty for not having the total compassion that I should....there is a part of me that wants to say, "you made your bed, now you must lay in it".......but God tells me to listen and pray for His will to be done! .................and in case you are wondering, I do actually have love left in my heart for this person who walked out on me and turned his back on me so long ago........after all, I am human and always wanted to have a Daddy like everyone else. Well, enough of me "thinking"....until later, I wish you all smiles in your heart!