I didn't really know how to title today's blog...so Monday Morning Review just popped into my head! This past weekend I was in Raleigh for the Miss North Carolina festivities! I left on Thursday and returned home on Sunday. I guess I am more of a homebody than I realized because I was ready to come home!! I have not been away from Cade that long since he has been born! Two nights has been the longest and on that third night, I was ready for morning to come so I could throw my stuff in the car and hit the road! He greeted me with open arms when I arrived home! Made me feel so special! The weekend was a good one. I feel a really good representative was crowned....even though it was not our Miss Stanly County. We shopped ALOT....to the point that I actually did not buy anything on one of the days.........now, thats bad, better check and see if I have a fever or something, I must be sick! haha!! Raleigh has ALOT of strip malls and regular malls.......you can find just about anything you want/need there, thats for sure! Of course, I had to hit Target! I could not come back empty handed .....have to bring back prizes for Cade!
So, now it's Monday, I am in the office and it is quiet! Everyone in their offices, not so sure anyone has even spoken this morning! I miss the days when the office chatter would make you smile and we shared our coffee breaks together and knew what each other did on the weekends! Not so sure what happened to those days....but I miss them! Eddie's job will end the end of July. Even though he doesn't open up and talk alot, I see the stress and strain on his face....and the harshness in his words! I try really hard to understand and "let it go" on some of the things that are said and done! It's hard, but I try to understand what he must be going through! That leads me to my point for today....why do we hurt the worse, the ones we supposedly love the most? Everyone does it....no one is exempt! Wonder how it makes God feel? We don't stop and think about that when it's happening do we? Sometimes I wonder if my feelings, my purpose matterat all...........but then something happens that lets me know I am loved and needed! Marriage is a job we have to work at everyday!! Hopefully when what we know is coming "finally comes", our life can move on again in the new direction that God has planned for us! For so long we have been hanging in the balance....just waiting! Thats the hard part! Trying to keep the faith, keep a smile on your face and a positive attitude! Which, I have the faith that God will direct us....that never falters! I just don't have a clue as to what that will be...but I know He will! Eddie has made some arrangements to go back to school and I am sure that once one phase of his life ends and the next begins, he will be a totally different person! I hope so! So, for now, we keep pressing on........just remember, if at all possible, that when you are in a "mood" and you are ready to lash out at those who are the closest to you, try hard to stop and think ~~ How does this make God feel?~~ Until Later
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I have thought many times about "why do we hurt the worse, the ones we supposedly love the most? ".......and I believe it's because we know they are going to love us anyway, even if we hurt them. It's not an excuse at all, and we surely should think about our actions more often, but that's my belief on it.
It has to be hard for Eddie losing his job ...it's hard for anyone but I think for the man, the provider its doubly hard. He probably feels as if he is letting you and Cade down and even though YOU know that is not the case, I'm sure it still messes with his pride. Just build him up and let him know you don't think any less of his ability to take care of his family. This will be a hard transition for you but you guys have a strong support system of family and friends and you will prevail :). Love you girl!!
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