My "Alone" Time

Eddie and Cade have gone to baseball practice and I am getting some "much needed" alone time....but as I sit here in my recliner, all I can do is watch the clock and wonder what they are doing! I have even called Eddie's cell to see how practice is going! Yeah, yeah, when you become a Mom there is no such thing as "Alone Time" any longer!!! Even when you are alone....your reflections of the day, what needs to be done, what has been done, whats going to be done.....ummm, well, you get the picture! It's a never ending cycle is it??? (*chuckle*)

Reflect.....ummm, lets see, that seems to be a word I have used alot lately! Reflect on the day, reflect on the week, reflect on a situation......reflect on life! Sometimes I sit and reflect (a fancier word for thinking) and I have all kinds of wonderful ideas that I feel will make life much better and then they never come into play, or the idea falls flat on it's face before it ever gets started! Ever had that to happen to you?? However, I never stop "reflecting"...... as should be how we view circumstances that seem hopeless......we should not give up just because it might seem hopeless.....keep reflecting! I know that with me, I keep wanting to have a "normal" family life where we can all spend time together in a comfortable atmosphere, everyone feels welcome and no one feels betrayed! Even though those things have happened several times, I continue to reflect...... to have hope, that in time, a plan will prevail and all will be well! Family vacations can take place again....vacations where everyone has some part in the planning and everyone has something they enjoy. I continue to reflect on ideas that can bring us together to spend quality time, bring the children together to play and grow together....so far, excuses take the place of reality, but I do have faith that soon enough, things will fall into place! There are times when I want to give up....been told to give it up, that it won't ever happen, but in my heart, I can't because I feel that if I continue to at least "ask" periodically, one day, it will all fall into place and we all will live happily ever after and in peace and harmony.....where everyone is treated the same and the love is equal! It will happen!

Faith falls into the category of reflection.....continue to reflect, even when ideas and dreams seem to fail.....they are simply not the ones that God has in mind.....continue to reflect, keep the faith and never give up the hope that through your reflections, the perfect plan will prevail! Until later!!