"Just Me"

I have had alot on my mind lately but the minute I sit down to write, it's gone! Ever have those days? Well, finally, the family is on the mend and I just hope it continues....of course, Thursday hasn't arrived yet and you know how Thursdays are for my family! LOL! Let me ask you a question, what are your expectations from your family? Somedays I feel I expect too much and I guess in certain circumstances I do because when it doesn't pan out, there are hurt feelings. I was raised that family stuck together and stood by each other and were "there" for each other even in the simplest of situations. I guess not everyone was raised in that aspect. Maybe I should just stop expecting things from people and just appreciate it more when things do happen. When you don't expect certain actions from people you can't be let down or disappointed when they don't come through for you...right?? So, now I have you all wondering what the heck is going on.......well, really its not that big of a deal, but I did have certain expectations from family members and their lack of concern recently has disappointed me, however, it has given me a whole new insight on things. I truly want to be remembered as someone who honestly cares for people, so my own actions are all that I need to have "expectations for", don't you agree? However, I wonder how I will handle things when these certain ones call on me for assistance. I want to do what is the Christian thing, but as a human, its hard to forget when you didn't even get a simple phone call during your crisis. I know what I'll do....I'll pray about it, I'll pray hard about it and let God guide me on what I need to do when that situation arises.

With all that has happened to my family lately, it is a little difficult to "pick my spirits up"! I'm working on that though. I guess just stopping to think that life as we knew it is no more! Mother and I are having doubts on my Grandmothers' progression. Physically she is healing as she should, but mentally, we just don't know if she WANTS to get better. She just does things and says things (and her actions) make it all seem so permanent that she will remain in the nursing home. She has always been such a strong willed woman and this is so out of character for her. Only time will tell and Mother and I have put it in God's hands! My Grandmother asked me to drive her car some....and I am. It is so different being in a car when you are use to an SUV. I'm trying real hard to be careful with her car because she pets and pampers it to death and lord forbid if I do anything to it....LOL!

Well, I hope the rest of the week goes well for all and soon - very soon, you'll click on here and read a "perky" blog! I promise! Just need to get use to alot of changes....I am one that has to deal with "change" very slowly! We're getting there though and we are futher along than we were! Have a blessed week everyone and check in with me again soon! ~Until Later